About Jim McClain
This might be just another whiner, lamenting the fact that he’s gonna die. I sure don’t go around looking for blogs like this to read, so I wouldn’t be surprised if not too many people read this. I guess I’m doing it so I have a place to vent.
I’ll try not to make every post maudlin or depressing, but to be honest, it’s hard not to be a little depressed when you know your time is marked down to days rather than years. I’ve been diagnosed with late stage Emphysema and it has been about 2½ years since I strapped on my oxygen tank. Yesterday (Dec. 27, 2007) a doctor told me I have 2 or 3 years left – maybe 3 years. I’m 58 and I ain’t too thrilled with the news.
Smoking kills! It killed me. Home movies from when I was just a baby show that I had been getting smoke in my lungs for about 50 years. I was an active smoker for 35. I may talk a little about those hazy days, but I hope to spend a good deal more time talking about what’s now and what’s left.
If you have something to say about what I write, please do say it. If you wanna call me a cry-baby, fine. I’ve been called worse. If you wanna offer encouragement, or something uplifting, go ahead. But I am keeping it real. You can’t convince me to believe I will be cured or that I will “get better.” I know better and I hope you do too. I’ll be doing my best to make the most of what I have and to make it even better. Some days I will work very hard, others I will just pout. I’m guessing that’s the way it works for most in this situation.
So, get on with it – the both of us. Take what you like and leave the rest, as they say. I will too. Maybe we will both enjoy some of what goes on here, or learn something new, or just share something interesting. My goal is to still be writing to this blog by December 27, 2010.